today a black boy jumped in front of me in the hallway and yelled, 'WHATCHAGONNADOABOUTIT!'

So i yelled, and then started laughing.
i love my school.
but what am i going to do about it?

i know why people get chronically depressed. i've got it.

The answer?

Bad/decaf coffee and/or math.

Really. Bad coffee is enough to make anyone feel that life is not worth living, and if you're already bummed out, it can send you over the edge. I say bad/decaf, because even bad caffinated coffee opens your eyes enough to make you feel normal, but if it is both bad and decaf, you might as well throw in the towel.

Math. It is the bane of existance. i ask you...
WHO THE FUCK CARES WHAT THE CUBED ROOT OF 6/7THS IS?!?!?
i certainly don't. It's not feeding the hungry or earning me money. It's not even making current television shows more watchable or creating fatless candy. It is not fun or relevant to my life, and i wash my hands of it.

am i right, or am i right.

to fund my extravagant lifestyle, i am an aide to an autistic boy in a gymnastics class of 15 5-7 year old boys for an hour on saturdays.

today one boy declared, "i...am a coconut head."
i congradulated him, thinking that that would be the end of the matter.
he began chanting "coconut head, coconut head..." and was joined by a chorus of 15 boys yelling "coconut head!!!"
this is my tax dollars working for me.

on the way home my dad informed me that somewhere in the heap of metal i claim as a car, there is a gas leak.
somewhere.
he told me that was the reason for the fire extinguisher in the passenger seat.
i told him every car ride would be an adventure from now on.

I have returned. I have missed ranting to the world wide web.
I think it has missed me.

Lots of things have changed since tattoome.

Mostly my shoe size.
But other things too.

I am a little less responsible in some ways, and a little more alive.
I have a job.
I have a new purse.
I have new friends.
I decided that i don't mind politics.
I decided that one can be straight and still have a good time experimenting.
I have discovered the wonder that is SmartBalance Butter.
I have discovered that i am not as strong, and stronger than i thought i was.
I have written half a novel.
I have re-read On The Road.

I bought a Pokemon shirt that is the source of all my power.

and i am genuinely having a good time.